I'm taking a long break

I already miss the exercises. Which only means that the decision was mature. I will still do some exercises but not hard. I've promised myself to never get completely out of shape and I intend to keep the promise.

It wasn't because of injury. Yes my knee tendons and shoulders has hurt a whole lot. But it has not kept me out of the gyms.

It wasn't because of fatigue. Yes I have a fatigue syndrome since 2005 and I sleep 10 hours a day. And yes I would have been able to exercise harder without being tired. But it did not keep me out of the gym.

It wasn't because I was scared of the jocks. Yes I was scared of guys with deliberately fucked up hormone levels - they are often dangerous even to themselfes and I've seen their scars (operation scars from ruptured muscles). But I wasn't so scared that they kept me out of the gyms.

I got tired of eating but it ain't that. I ate around 1.8 times as much when exercising 3 times in one week and I got tired of eating meat, chick peas, lentils, vegetables, icecream, macaronis, sourmilk, cornflakes, bread, and those ready-made frozen dishes that are actually very good nowadays! And pizza, I won't have restaurant pizza for a while. Well it was pretty expensive too. But it did not keep me from training.

What it is though is compartment syndrome and similar physical limitations. I gained 30% in weight between 2000 and 2004. It was not because of exercising and definitely not because of doping. The ones who knew me back then know that I used to swim between 1998 and 2006 and only occationally resistance exercise. Some people probably think I took something that made me grow - but I did not. I've never tried any sort of doping whatsoever. I haven't tried other drugs either. I haven't ever done anything stranger/stronger than marijuana and I don't recommend that one either. It's this extraordinary weariness in my thighs that has to do with too little blood flow into them. Really the strongest chemical I do is caffeine.

So what's happened is that after (relatively rapidly) gaining 20-30 kilo of weight as an adult - I got problems. In 2005 summer came and I had bought a mountainbike and rode it like hell a few days and then the knee tendons were fucked for a period of time. It was until 2008 that I finally understood how to solve the knee tendon soreness. After trying every kind of training (heavy, easy, squats, leg extensions, leg curl, running, kickboxing, everything) I realised that what solved it was daily walks. Then I got a problem with the ligaments around the pelvis in 2009. So I realised that what it is all about is that the body has not yet fully adjusted to the significantly heavier body. After some 7 years it is finally shaping up but it took so long to get strong enough in the slowest growing bits! What developed first were muscles (loose tissue) second the tendons I guess and third the ligaments. This is in theory though, in practise it was rather hurting the knee tendons for a couple of years, then I got sore periost too in the lower legs. But what lingered the longest wasn't the periost but the tendons in fact... I've also developed a compartment syndrome in the arms and legs. Like the blood can't get through. Actually I started feeling this already back in 2002 when I had gained half of the total weight. But the thighs got even worse than the lower legs for a moment. My thighs are inherently strong but spring 2010 I got extreme weariness in them - getting tired from just cleaning the floor. My conclusion is that it was rather ok (except the tibialis anterior) as long as the connective tissue expanded (the muscles grew a lot between 2000 and 2004) and then the connective tissue had to stay extended (from what my legs were before) for many years. Something that stays extended for a long time gets brittle and that would make blood not getting through any more is my idea. Some of the thigh compartments feel stiff. It's the same with the rest of the body. I've had hard connective tissue in my arm pits (the lateral sides of both pectoralis) for years now that is finally getting lush. The heart was originally dimensioned for a body of 67 kilo. It has to grow. I've also been breathing heavy the past years. The chest has to adjust to being bigger - with all the connective tissue it is built of.